I am pissed

they shut of my internet-AGAIN! IDIOTS!! >.<  my bills r on automatic payment,yet they NEVER take the payment,so they turn off the service for no pay. suuuuuure makes sense! >.<  Bright House Y can't u come out to Sarasota/Bradenton?? COME ON!! more money for u!! duh! lol I like ur service a MILLION x's better. u could have more customers if u extended ur service further. COME ON!! =0 I miss my internet. =(

journaling/blogging whatever you wanna call it. =)

I actually had these weird online assignments I had to do in english class in college,where they have u practice ur grammar,and ur ability to identify things in essays that need correcting, or whatever they were. One of the things the lessons give tell u is to "journal", or "blog". So that is what I'm doing. Blogging. Good thing I have this blogger page. LOL U can write about anything u want,and u don't have to be grammatically correct,or POLITICALLY correct for that matter. Good. Coz I aint gonna. Political correctness,and the expectation to feel sorry for stupid people can kiss my ever loving ass LOL

So here's my journal;my "practice" for the day: I orignally made this blogger,so I could use google adsense. Google adsense,however;is a JOKE! ok. I've had them for like a YEAR now,and I STILL don't earn anything,so I took it back out. It's a waste. However,I still like blogging,and no1 prolly reads this,but it gives me something to do,and I don't have to risk some of my friends on facebook reading this. Most,I don't MIND reading what I say,but I have OTHERS,who's opinions I realllllly don't wanna see. LOL I have a cousin who's so ATHEIST,and so LIBERAL to the point,that if I post ANYTHING to do w/religion,or politics(since my politcal views r more conservative) he FLIES off the handle at me!! It's really irritating! >.<

Also, atleast 1 of my guy friends on there has a thing 4 me,so it kinda makes me feel weird when I mention Grant Wilson(who I have a CRUSH on lol),or post his pix. Since no1else uses blogger,I don't have to worry about them reading any of this.That's basically it. I made blogger,so I could use adsense,but I'm not thrilled w/it. I do like blogger,so I am keeping it. It's the only place I feel safe giving my opinions n such aside twitter,but twitter doesn't let u type much. It's just for short statuses,whereas here,I can type as much as I want. That's all. =)

my mom juts doesn't get it. I'm not the way I am BECAUSE of HER lol

my mom thinks that despite her efforts to raise me and my brother in a "normal" way,she still ended up making us "emotionally crippled" or however she put it the other night. lol grant it,my grandmother made some not so wise decisions in her life that caused my mom,aunts,and uncle to have all these issues that they still have to this day. Now make ur way down the line to the next generation. My brother at 15 is way more interested in computer ganes,and the military(he's in ROTC and plans to join the marines after high school) than he is in girls. The thing is tho,my brother likes  this girl who's a friend of the family. They've known each other since they were little kids,and her sisters,and brother,and parents,and us...we all knew each other since forever. I was 11 or 12 when we met,and I am now 24(going on 25 in 2 months) My brother,like me is NOT going to admit when he likes some1 coz rejection is the most painful thing to deal w/. Also, we have both discovered it is far better to have them as ur friend,than to not have them at all. Not to mention,she lives in kinda far from us anyway,so he never sees her.

Now,on to ME. I have SHITTY luck w/men. period. Even as a teenager. It just NEVER changed. My mom also sees that her 24 yr old straight daughter is skittish around men. um yes,but not because of YOU. coz men r ASSHOLES! too many are damned good actors. They ACT like gentleman. They ACT like they respect ur wishes and boundaries,etc. They will SAY ANYTHING they think u wanna hear to have their way w/u(atleast that's been my experience). my last boyfriend was like this. He's a dope user,he works 4 walmart,and doesn't intend to ever change that. I have too much ambition,I don't wanna get pregnant,coz I'm in college,and fighting to have a future. This guy hurt me so bad,worse than just breaking my heart. He was going way too fast,and could be scary at times. I can't put into WORDS what I went thru dating him. The humilaiton. His stupidity. I just can't trust guys anymore. Not after THAT! Not to mention that things went right back to how they were before. Guys I like NEVER feel the same about me. EVER! I was falling for a really nice guy I met at school,and it turned out he had a girlfriend. =( They broke up later,but I now find they are back together.

The 1st guy I ever fell for back in high school,was 1 of my friends...until he found out how I felt about him. I couldn't even have him as a friend anymore. He wouldn't talk to me-always avoided me like the plague,and when he DID talk to me,I couldn't even tease him anymore.(we used to pick on each other alot) He would always get so pissed, and fly off the handle at me. So,yeah EXCUSE ME if I don't ever "make a move"; tell a guy when I like him. I'm SICK of it blowing up in my face! guys want me?? they have to come to ME. I'M not chasing them,no matter HOW MUCH I like him. EVER! >.<

My mother doesn't understand it isn't anything SHE did. I have LOUSY luck w/men,and it has NOTHING to do w/anything SHE'S done. The ONLY thing that has to do w/her,is my wanting to stay abstinent till marriage. She kept telling me about her ,and my dad. How me and my half brother were born at the same time,and how that whole mess happened. She USED 2 tell me I'm better off waiting. I noticed she doesn't care 1 way or other now,but I still do. I have watched WAY 2 many ppl(quite a bit my own FRIENDS) get screwed over by a guy. He knocks her up,and leaves her. Tells ppl the kid aint his,and there was a "maternity test" to prove otherwise. She says he was the ONLY guy she's ever slept w/ UGH! Too much drama!! I DON'T WANT THAT! >.< I REFUSE 2 give any guy the opportunity to ruin my life,my reputation,and hurt our child. making that poor kid wonder what THEY did wrong,and y daddy doesn't love him/her. Nope. REFUSE!! I am NOT ready for a kid at this time,so I will NOT even take the risk. DEAL W/IT!

There just isn't any1 for me out there,and I refuse to look anymore. I'm done. Mom this ISN'T UR DOING!! this is my OWN RETCHED luck w/men! Come to think of it,I believe my brother has watched me get hurt often enough too,that he won't tell girls when he likes them. Coz seeing me get hurt all the time has made him shy away. Either that,or he really does like the computer more than girls. I dunno. Just my theory. My mom really thinks she's screwed us up. This y I am sooooo grateful for this crush I am having on a man I don't know,and would never stand a chance w/anyway because he is married. I don't have to worry about a broken heart,or having to go faster than I am ready for. I'm safe,and I like it that way! >.<

this was from an assignment I had,and I found this HILARIOUS! XD

  If you want to irritate your boss and lose your job, follow these suggestions.  Don't show up for work, and don't call in. Let your boss assume you are caught in traffic and will just be late.  Then, when you don't show up and your boss calls, don't answer your phone. Instead, enjoy your day doing whatever you want to do.  When you go to work the following day, don't explain your absence. Just say you didn't feel like coming to work.  Your boss will be baffled by your lack of an excuse. Take a long lunch break, and eat such a big meal that you have to take an afternoon nap.  When your boss finds you with your head on your desk and wakes you up, assume it's quitting time and walk out the door.  By now, your boss will be furious with you, but don't turn around. And don't go to work the next day. You won't have a job.

great *rolls eyes*

I think it's funny how the OLDER generations(like my parents's generation) r the ONLY 1's that see so MUCH in me. It's sad. I can't find a guy my own age like that. =( I know a guy I met in class this semester,who's 43 and married. his wife treats him like shit no matter WHAT he does for her,and in the mean time I am just being a good friend and a listening ear for him. he also would help me w/math since he was so good at it,and I struggled GREATLY! it was kind of a trade off. anywho,this guy admitted he likes me. he already said if he was single and younger,he would be asking me out. he said I was SMART,WITTY,BEAUTIFUL,and FUNNY. WHY CAN'T GUYS IN THEIR FREAKING 20'S or even EARLY 30'S SEE THAT??!! WHY???!!!! I got yet another annoying IM from some1 who has NO intention of telling me who the HELL they are,and that person says "hey babe" GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! GO 2 HELL!!! I'm sick of stupid guys w/NO RESPECT!! I'm not ur "babe" I don't even KNOW U!! do u even KNOW what I LOOK like???!! I get be some 900 lb OLD lady w/false teeth or not teeth! or some gay rapist for all u know. UR AN IDIOT!! enough said! sheesh!!! I have had guys drool over me b4,think I was hot,sexy,or CUTE! not ONCE did they EVER use words like "stunning" "beautiful" "smart" not ONCE did they actually wonder WHY or HOW I was still single. they don't give a damn! they only care about SEX! NOTHING and I mean NOTHING is more important than that to them(except MAYBE vid games for some) I think the idiots that started that sexual revolution should just be smacked upside the damn head!!! they RUINED chivalry!! they KILLED IT!! >.< I think it's sad how only men in their 40's/50's notice ME as PERSON MORE than how I LOOK!! I HATE that!!! I don't wanna have to date a man old enough to be my dad JUST 2 be treated w/RESPECT and JUST 2 be LOVED more than LUSTED after. oh hell-just to be NOTICED!!! =0 blah! I just needed 2 rant. rant over LOL

all I can say is..THANK U LORD!!!! =)

I can't BELIEVE I was starting to fall in love w/some guy I met only a yr ago in college. I NEVER got to see him much after that semester ended,and I missed him soooooo much. Everything tho,has happened the way it did 4 a REASON,and I thank GOD 4 that coz I NEEDED it!! =) ok case in point: guy I like doesn't take summer classes,later on quits jobs at Target,eliminating BOTH ways I had of seeing him. Next thing,I thought I would see him this semester,NEVER see him. The I start watching Ghost Hunters,and develope a MAJOR crush on Grant Wilson.(some1 I don't know,never will,never stand a chance w/ so won't fall in love w/ him) so little by little I am thinking less and less of the guy I met at school,and then low and behold...HE GETS BACK W/HIS EX!! holy CRAP!!! LOL this is a def classic case of things happening for a reason. the never seeing him anymore,and then getting a new crush(on some1 I don't even know at that). it all ads up. I'm not dying of a broken heart now,coz I'm over him finally! *sings* I AM OVER HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIM!! THANK U JESUS!!!oh happy days!! lol otherwise I would have been suffering a broken heart now,but I'm not. I have enough distractions,and had them for just long enough that it doesn't hurt!! yay!!! I feel so high right now!! lol for the 1st time all year,I FINALLY feel blessed! =)


I'll just stick to crushing on this guy for now. yes sir. =) LOL!! LOOK AT HIM!! HE'S ADORABLE!! AHHHHHH!!!! ^_^  LOL

I wonder what REALLY makes someone a "sensitive"?

 my whole life,my mom has been telling me I'm a sensitive. She makes it sound as if it means that ur sensitive 2 spirits. if a place is haunted,ur gonna be the 1st(or only) 1 to experience paranormal activity. or also,like in the case of both me and my dad,u have constant battles w/demons in ur dreams. I don't have them CONSTANTLY,but ever since I was 13 I started getting dreams about being attacked by demons. Be it,them throwing thru windows,or throwing me off stair cases,sometimes I get the 1's where I'm in my own bed,and they're pulling me slowly off my bed,and I can't see them. I can see where they're grabbing me,and I can see myself  slide in the direction I'm being pulled in,but I can't SEE whatever it is,has me. it's not even in shadow form. no black mass or nothing. just NOTHING THERE! my dad would fight demons in his sleep,in mine they would attack me. and I was ALWAYS never able to move to fight it off, nore could I make my voice work 2 DEMAND it let me go.

Then there was the incident that happened when I was about 2,my parents had me in this 1 bedroom,they SWEAR it was haunted or something,because I always lost my mind in their. night after night I woke up screaming my head off,and staring at 1 spot of my crib. my mom said she would even rearrange my room,my crib,and I would still wake up hollering,and looking at 1 spot. I've even tried to climb out of my crib time and time again. these are the things she bases me being a "sensitive" on,yet if u watch Ghost Hunters,they're idea of a sensitive seems to be of some1 who is psychic. so I dunno. lol I am just wondering. =)

blah! hello again lol

so anywho...it's been proly MONTHS (again) since I've come on here, and blogged lol I am HAPPY 2 say I am over the guy I had it bad 4,and I can thank this new full blown crush I am now having for that LOL I have this insane fascination w/the paranormal,and am always wanting to know if it's real or not,so my mom kept INSISTING I watch Ghost Hunters,and low and behold after a few episodes or so,I find myself developing a full blown crush on Grant Wilson,from the show LOL I think Dave Tengo's a cutie too,but somehow its GRANT I can't freaking take my eyes off of. lol I just wanted to watch the show for any spirits they find. I wasn't supposed to be distracted by 1 of the guys LOL he is married tho,and I respect that. even if I meet him someday,and he turns out to be the "unfaithful type" I wouldn't have anything to do w/him-sorry but I don't mess w/married men. Won't stop me from drooling tho lol I would never even TRY 2 get him anyway,but this works great! I NEVER get the guy anyway,but this is even better because I don't know him,so it's IMPOSSIBLE 2 fall in love w/him. keeps me from going crazy,and I'll be able to move on b4 I know it. This also gets me over the other guy,who OBVIOUSLY ISN'T interested in me. never has been. never will be. never get to see him anyway,so there. =P I have fully accepted the fact,that I am just not meant 2 have any kind of relationship. My generation is 2 freaking stupid,and only cares about 1 thing,and my trust issues r far 2 high 2 let any1else in. I'm actually GRATEFUL when I have celebrity crushes. For  ME,it's RARE,but it's much safer on my heart. it's kinda like riding a motion simulator ride instead of the real thing,it gives the same effects w/o the risk =)

paranormal? what else could it be?

me n my best friend went to a cemetery last night. I wanted to take random pix and see if I saw anything. She was most interested in the "Mrytle Hill" cemetery in Tampa, FL.,but it was after dark and she chickened out;wouldn't go w/me. It was the cemetery she looked up online that was said to be haunted. I ended up going by myself to take pix and ended up in a cemetery called "orange grove" which is NEXT to Myrtle Hill. There's a fence btw us and the actual grave site,but I took pix anyway at random. I didn't notice much on the camera itself,but when I got home,and opened the pix fully on the computer,I saw orbs in so many photos,and what looks like a faint image of a man in the 1 pic. Some of the photos have what looks like smoke or fog off to the side that DIDN'T appear to me as I took the pic,also there was no smoke and it wasn't foggy last night. Anyway I am gonna put up the pic that looks like a man is standing right in front of me. Mind u,when I took this pic there was NO1 standing there(atleast as far I knew there wasn't) I checked. I looked around,before snapping this pic and saw no1. =0

I could post my other pix,but none of them compare to this 1 right here. This is the only 1 that appears to have a ghost or SOMETHING there. I also have a really crappy camera,so the fact u can see any1 at all is kinda eery. =0

KITTY!! ^_^

So the cool news is,my friend,Stacey, is moving to MO. w/her dad and has to give up her cat,and she offered him to me. Now, the hard part is convincing my parents to let me have him. I MISS having a cat and so does my brother. I'm hoping if I can convince them I will take care of the cat(definitely still job hunting tho) and buy his food dish,litter box,toys etc. they'll let me keep him-AND I still plan to move out as soon as I am able to and of COURSE I will take the cat w/me. His name is Jax(Stacey named him after a mortal kombat character lol) and from what I've heard he sounds like a real brat cat,funny and all. haha. I would LOVE to take him in. =) I just hope I can convince them to let me tak him in. either that or Stacey's taking him to the humane society on Monday. I don't want her to have to do that. =( animals get put to sleep if they don't adopt out-I'd rather take him in. I can't wait for Mom get home so I can ask her. I am NOT even gonna BOTHER w/my dad-he says no to EVERYTHING and ESPECIALLY to a cat! Also I hope I can get  him and the dogs used to each other-that might pose a problem. =( Too bad he's not a kitten or it might work. Since he's GROWN-I dunno how much adjusting the dogs will need. =/

Fall is such a bummer,not at all what I hoped for. =(

Is there some unseen force somewhere that just DOES NOT want me to be happy?? I feel like the closer I get to accomplishing something,the further I am pushed away from it to the point I either have start back at point A,or give up entirely. I know in my last blog,I had talked about how anxious I was for the fall to start, so I could see this certain guy again. I feel blessed to have made friends w/such an awesome person =) and I hate to say it,er admit to it,but dammit I fell in love with him! *groans* not cool man and def not fair! >.<  I was hoping I would see him this semester, but I have't seen him AT ALL! =(

 I am there 4 days a week all morning and most of the afternoon and I NEVER seen him. I have seen almost every1else from the spring atleast ONCE,but not him. I literally haven't seen him since about 2 months ago when I was in Target,right before he quit. Yep. Don't even have THAT way to see him anymore. He no longer works at Target. So depressing. -_- I have even stayed at school at night,hoping to run into him THEN,in case he goes at night now,but no such luck. =( I think 1 of the hardest things I am dealing w/now also, is while I had been crushing on him and falling in love w/him this whole time he had, had a girlfriend. Yep. Blew my mind away. I never knew that. I thought for sure,and so did my friends when I told them how he was around me,that he had a thing for me,but I was wrong.

He is JUST a really nice guy,that's it! didn't mean anything. They're broken up NOW, but the whole time I knew him, and THOUGHT he kinda liked me...he had a girlfriend. It's kind of a bummer-kinda hurts even tho they're not together NOW. I mean dude-he's back on the market! I call DIBS! =D Also,almost every guy I have ever liked,KNEW IT! I dunno when or HOW they find out,but they almost all,always,find out! So,if he knew, then he would have known I was flirting w/him right? I was so OBVIOUS! I mean,I was afraid I was,so y didn't he TELL ME he had a girlfriend instead of letting me (unintentionally) flirt w/ and sorta hit on a guy that was TAKEN?? If I find out he DOES know,and HAS known all this time I am DEF gonna ask y da hell he never told me had a gf? lol

I wish I just..KNEW!!

so...a few months ago, I finally start college something I have been wanting to do for YEARS. After 3 in a half years of wasting my life away in retail and feeling my soul get slowly sucked out,I finally got pissed off @ my job and took my GED test1 more time and finally passed and went STR8 to college! Ok so I had plans of ignoring all ELSE including GUYS! All I wanted 2 do was focus on getting my degree and increasing my earning power and basically "soar w/the eagles" instead of constantly being dragged down by a bunch of "turkeys" lol so i accomplish all that and know for sure I wanna get my degree,even had plans 2 go back up north coz 4 years ago when I was there,I discovered the ppl and atmosphere r just so much better than down here. Right?

All beautiful plans and what not! and then...I met HIM! The cutest and sweetest guy I have ever met in 4 years lol Right there in my class! Um fate?? What part of I did NOT wanna notice guys and just wanna focus SOLELY on my degree DID U NOT GET?!! >.<  Anywho this guy started talking 2 ME 1st!! it started w/asking me 2 share a book(he totally made me jump a mile coz out of nowhere he just walks up 2 me and asks if I can share my book w/him AND he used my name which kinda freaked me out coz it was only the 1st or 2nd day of school! wow he learned my name FAST!)


So it was little STUPID things like this I kept noticing. OK 1st was learning my name and picking ME out of every1 ELSE to share a stupid book w/! then I ran into him in da LIBRARY 2! mind u we were not really well aquainted yet and he REMEMEBERD me!! I didn't remember who he was @ 1st myself. He was wearing shades and sitting so still so I kinda figured he was asleep or something which he wasn't lol He suddenly nods 2 me and says "Good morning" AGAIN I nearly jump thru the roof lol I was getting kinda freaked out coz like I said I didn't recognize him@ 1st lol I nearly asked him who he was and right I was about to ask I finally remembered who he was lol Then after that it seemed like I ran into him ALL THE TIME!! He asked me if I started getting my hours in da ARC lab(some stupid thing required for our class they makes u do lol) and I had forgotten about that,but when I started doing that AGAIN there he was!! He kept coming in there around the same time as me AND he always sat w/me! w/ME!! He seemed kinda anti-social in the beginning! I never saw him talk to any1else(and that's if he ever talked at all) and he sure as hell didn't remember any1ELSE'S names in there! Not for MONTHS! and he learned MINE damn near the 1st day of class lol

He still wouldn't talk much in the beginning-just listended to his music! yet he always sat w/ME when he COULD have sat by himself which clearly it looked 2 me like some1 like him would want to do. I don't get it! why ME??? so I wondered for a long time if the guy liked me. Then-it TOTALLY BACKFIRED on me! While I was questioning if this guy liked me-I ended up liking HIM!! -_- That was NOT supposed 2 happen!! why me?? lol Anyways I found myself hanging out w/him all the time, and as much as possible, and we had this stupid little but OBVIOUS bond going on btw us! lol


As usual he talked more to ME than any1else. I pretty much got him to myself alot! =) He even let me listen 2 his music(even tho I didn't ask him to) he simply scrolled thru a list of songs looking for the 1 he wanted and then at the last second looks at me and says, "ok I'll share this w/u" Mind u I NEVER.ASKED. lol It was cute I have 2 admit! Haha even stupid things like the time I had string in my hair(I never knew it) and he reached over and pulled it out of my hair 4 me! so adorable ^_^ Then it went to me running into him when I cut thru the cafeteria 2 get 2 my next class and BOY WHAT A SMILE!! AHHHH!! ^_^ he looked so surprised yet so damn HAPPY 2 have run into me the same as I had when running into HIM! so we both grinned like iditos and said hi in passing! DAMN that was ADORABLE!! ^_^ <3 I really love his smile and I love how I can make him laugh lol Ok enough about that! You'll be here all day reading this,if I tell u EVERYTHING! Point is I wonder if the guy likes me or if he's JUST simply a NICE GUY! coz he is! He's a gentleman,and 1 to every1 not just me! But sometimes I feel kinda singled out w/his niceness and I love it! ^_^

Anyways that was back in the spring,now it's summer and of course I'm still in class but he isn't. I freaking miss him so much! Altho I did get to see him at his job a few times-haha u can't get away from me that easily =P =D lol I dunno if he likes me or not or even if he STILL likes me(assuming he really did b4) I iz confused coz I dunno if he does for sure or not and I don't wanna be the 1 2 ask! I get humiliated easily when this sorta thing! Not eager to take that burn again! =( so we pose the simple question yet unknown/complicating answer: Does he like me or does he not?? LOL

what happens when u fall asleep @ school lol

ok so I made the idiotic mistake of taking an antiobiotic on an empty stomach(altho I thought a glass of v8 AND a reeses stick was enough on my stomach-guess not) so by the time I got to school just as I was sitting down and starting on my work,I started feeling like I was gonna hurl. Sometimes I feel like especially when I'm tired and can usually burp a few times and/or close my eyes for a few seconds or min and then I feel fine,but not this time. I still kept feeling like I would puke and it just kept getting stronger so I had to leave class and get a few sips of water even go stand in the bathroom for a bit just incase. Well I went back 2 class and still felt bad so I finally gave up and left b4 I could totally embarass myself by getting sick in class. Anywho so I left and I didn't have a cell ph on me plus Mom had her class which was 2 hrs so I had to hang around school and went str8 to the library and did what every1else in that school does-SLEEP! I slept in the library and it didn't seem like I had a very deep sleep but I guess I did bcoz I had 2 dreams during that time lol


Ok so the 1st dream I had was about the guy I like lol! It was kinda funny coz in the dream I actually had my own pic up on twitter instead of the diff 1 I have now, and the guy I like ALSO had twitter. Ok I made a post asking how u talk to the guy u like or something and fortunately I was careful not to mention his name,however he commented on that tweet. It was a twitter acc w/his pic up so I knew it was him and the comment said something like "just trying talking to the guy" or something like that. It totally made me nervous and crap a brick lol even in the dream I didn't know he had twitter lol I also felt busted and wondered if he knew that HE was the 1 I was talking about.

Ok weird dream lol Then the 2nd 1 I had was a dream about trying to get out of the mall b4 they closed lol because all the stores were closing the doors and locking them fast and me and a few other ppl were rushing to get out of there and kept getting locked in and having to take back exits and everything else! ok so that was just WEIRD. But I find it funny lol

so there u have it. u fall asleep n school and fall 2 deeply u have strange dreams. fortunately as far as I know I never talked in my sleep or anything or that would have been embarassing lol on the plus side after my long nap I no longer felt nauseous and in fact I was HUNGRY lol hmmm so a good friend of mine also sleeps in the library alot-I wonder if he ever dreamt alot too? I can't wait till the fall when he comes back and I can pick on him. MUAHAHAHA!! =D

HAPPY 4TH EVERY1!!! now let's go blow stuff up!! =)

I realize it's been forever and a day since my last blog thingy- but don't worry-I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack! my last blog was about getting my ged(or jed as mark likes to calls it lol) and well just a few nights ago was my ged graduation lol I am officially in my 2nd semester @ college! which isn't as much fun as my 1st 1 was(especially since a certain guy refused to go to school in the summer-damn him >.<) lol he is awesome by the way, and I hope I get to spend more time getting to know him hehe =D ok so I really like the guy-I bet u woulda never guessed that lol I have been a million x's happier. I no longer work in retail and I'm in college and don't feel my life wasting away so much anymore so it's cool. I'm trying to get my best friend to come over and blow things up w/me haha I'm actually up in the morning on a non school day which is very rare for me lol I am also gonna try to get her here sooner and go to a certain store to bug a certain individual that works there even tho I already bugged this person only a few days ago...heh heh anywhos Happy 4th every1! try not to blow up ur neighbors-unless of course u have1 like the 1 I had @ age 13 who's a total douche and deserves it and even then,make sure u don't get caught lol

WOO HOO! I'M A COLLEGE WOMAN!!

don't worry I will NOT burn my ged and I especially will not burn something INSIDE the house LOL

Homer: WOO HOO! I'M A COLLEGE MAN! I won't need my high school diploma ANYMORE!

*lights ged on fire hanging on wall and starts dancing* I am so smart! I am so smart! S-M-R-T-I mean S-M-A-R-T! =D

my brat dog is @ it again! XD

Southpaw..the world's biggest BRAT-on 4 legs LOL this slick dog of mine decided to pull a whole bunch of stuff off our little coffee table and when my mom bent over to pick it up,he started nipping her hair in a certain way as if to say "ha ha ha ha HA I made a mess and u gatta clean it up! btw mom let's play" LOL So he makes a huge mess and then doesn't let my mom clean up after him,w/o further aggravation ROFL! Airedales r hilarious!!! =D

my brat in all his glory lol

Another pic of the star of the show-a.k.a. Southpaw,in front of the couch we were trying to sell on craigslist W/O him in the pic(we didn't want ppl thinking the dog was included) lol He insisted on having his pic taken b4 he would move LOL

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I think I'm gonna join the military...maybe..

Let's see I really wanna travel but can't afford to. I want to actually have a SECURE job(one where I don't get fired just bcoz some1 doesn't like me.) I also want to have enough money to invest and have fun and go all out for ppl on their bdays and xmas! I just want to LIVE! So I dunno I'm thinking of it as an option but def not decided yet. Hmmm think...think lol In the mean time I'm just gonna keep working my internet stuff and hope they start to work for me as well.

My Fav Videos lol

I love this vid! It sounds pretty cool and at the same time I couldn't stop laughing when I watched this. =)

I seriously wanna know...WHAT R THEY THINKING??!!

or like Mr.Brown says, "What the what??" I've never understood my aunt and uncle! I always thought they were a little strange in the way they think. For instance, my dad just told me when he was on the ph earlier asking his brother to lend him some money so we can pay the rent since we're kinda broke atm,my uncle told him he don't lend money or anything like that coz it's a "sin"! really??? a sin????? how??? u mean u actually think God frowns upon loans?? r u kidding me?? I think lending some1 money to help them out is anything but a sin. God wants u to help people out as best as u can,especially your own family. Why would you think that's a sin??? Actually I kinda thought the whole lending money thing is perfect for when u need it and is alot better than stealing!! Now stealing is what's a sin. But lending money???!! Come on!! Show me were in the bible it says "thou shall not lend money to thy brother" SHOW ME!! LOL! This oddly enough makes me think of all the fools that r obssessed w/being politically correct,and think everything that they don't agree w/ is "unconstitutional" lol That's what my Uncle is reminding me of now only using christianity and "sin" in place of "unconstitutional"! Just a thought...=/