*This wasn't an assignment I had to do; it was just a suggestion from my online hw I had,to make a journal. helps give u the practice to make sure ur grammtically correct and what not. lol! I may type some more of these. =) *(this is old by the way.) lol
My 1st day of college was the day I met the love of my life. We were in the
same math class and most people didn't have their books yet,so some had to
share their books with others. He was one of those people that didn't have a
book and so chose ME to sit with and share my book. I had no idea then that
this was the start of a friendship. After that,I ran into him all over campus
all the time and we talked and got to know each other some. The more I got to
know him,the more I found myself enjoying his company. Enjoying HIM. After so
many months,I fell in love with him. He's sweet. He's a gentleman. He's funny
at times(when he actually lets himself goof off) and he's defintely a cutie. My
1st day of college was also exciting because I thought, "FINALLY! I'm in
school! I can finally make something of myself and not be burdened and trapped
by crappy jobs anymore. I was just so happy to have finally gotten my GED and
started school. I also discovered I had some pretty cool college professors.
Here's my freewriting garbage. Sine Jashua is my favorite subject,I will
talk about him. Sometimes I have to ask myself why do I like him so much? What
is it about him that's so desirable? I think I would be writing forever if I
tried to explain it. There is something about him,that captured my heart and
never seeing him anymore is drivng me friggin crazy! OK 1st of all,HE started
it! HE walked into MY life! HE talked to ME 1st. Most people in our
class(including him) didn't have their books yet,so they sat and shared with
people who did. I happened to have my book and Jash decided to share with me.
Ever since then it seemed like I ran into him EVERYWHERE. I went to the library
and he was right there. Sitting in a chair near the very same books I am always
looking at. I would keep on forgetting who he was because it was so early in
the semester,but he defintely didn't forget who I was. He was wearing shades
and sitting so still,so when he suddenly moved and nodded to me I jumped 10
feet in the air. He then startled me further by saying "good
morning". Not remember him I thought he was talking to someone else,but
when i looked around,there was noone else there-just me. I was on the verge of
asking him who he was when I finally remembered-he was the guy I shared my book
with in class. Ever since that day we started talking alot more and hanging
around each other. For the longest time, he never talked to anyone else in our
class,just me. I wondered why that was.
It really did seem that he liked hanging around ME specifically.I was not
only person he talked to in our class. I was also not the 1st.
The more I hung around and talked to him,the more I noticed things. Like,how
much of a gentleman he is. He is always holding doors open for ladies,but he
seems to be there most often for me. When we had to put in time in the arc
lab,he always came and sat with ME. Now mind you,he seemed like that anti
social/shy type at first,so I felt kind of special when he decided to sit with
me,when he COULD have chosen a table by himself. Also I was suspicious. I began
to wonder if he liked me or something. Bad move on my part. My suspicion of him
crushing on me ,backfired. I ended up being the one developing a crush on HIM.
Pretty rotten let me tell you. Once again,the more I hung around him,the more
crush started turning into feelings and it was over little/stupid stuff. Like
once day we were sitting outside and he suddenly tells me I have something in
my hair. I reached up grabbing whatever it was,but since I never found it,he
leans over,reaches out,and grabs the string out of my hair. That brief physical
contact sent my heart SLAMMING into my chest,and filling my stomach with
butterflies. There was another time when were sitting outside class waiting to
go in and after the 1st class finally comes out,he jumps up immediately and
heads toward the door,only instead of going in,he stands there holding open the
door until me and my friend go in. She gets in there b4 I do but he still
stands there,patiently waiting for me to get off the floor and grab my stuff.
Meanwhile the rest of our class is just piling in past him and he continues to
stand there. Finally, when I walk in he atlast goes in and sits down. Maybe
that was just a coincidence(considering he had a girlfriend at the time,as I
later found out) but it made me feel special. My heart FLEW out of my chest
over that. I once again felt singled out by him,singled out in a positive
manner. All of these stupid LITTLE things caused me to fall head over heels in
love with him. I miss the spring semester. Mostly i miss HIM. I never see him
at school anymore and it bums me out,even makes me depressed at times,coz I
don't get to talk to him anymore. I don't get to just sit there with
him,sometimes in complete silence,and sometimes talking alot. I miss all of it
and I miss him.
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