Dream #1: I had some strange dreams this morning. I was only sleep maybe an hour at most when I started getting this weird series of dreams. The 1st 1 I think was about Rob. There was about 6-8 picnic tables w/ like 3 or 4 in each row under some outside "roof" like u would see at a park. anyway,some event of some sort was going on because all the tables were FULL. there were LOADS of people sitting at all of them,and I was kinda in the 1 row sorta furthest from the last table in the other row,and I thought I saw ROB sitting at that table. He was wearing the blue and white striped shirt I love so much w/the skull on it in the dream. It looked like him over there sitting,talking and laughing w/the people at that table. There were enough other people kinda in my way blocking my view just enough that I couldn't be sure if it was him,but I started pining away for him all over again. I don't recall speaking out loud,but I felt myself being ansty and almost jumping up and running over there,and I was thinking in my mind and heart, "omg. it's Rob. I miss u so much and love u. I want u back." or something,and he seemed to read my mind coz he suddenly stopped talking and laughing,and he looked right at me and got up just as antsy and fast as I was doing,and he started walking quickly towards me going around the people,but as he was making his way towards me,his appearance started changing. his face AND body changed,and he looked more like 12 or 14 year old boy...not a 12/ 14 yr old version of HIM but a random 12/14 yr old boy,and I started to push him away and said, "never mind. ur not who I thought u were." but maybe it WAS still him. I don't know,but it was weird.
Dream #2: My dream suddenly flipped over to another a dream. I had some dreams where I'm in my "room",but it's not my real room. However the same exact dim lighting I had on from my desk lamp was the same kinda light in my "room." my room was set up slightly different from my real room. I was standing by my bed and closet,and the bedroom door was to the right of my closet(in real life,it's to the left of it). It was Carrie. I met her at orientation months ago,and we've been good friends since..she was in my dream opening my door, I heard her talking to somebody I didn't see or hear,and she opened my door only slightly then looked at me,and I looked back then she closed the door and walked out. I can't remember if this was between my dream about Rob,and the next 1 I'm about to tell,or if was after. Anyway this brief bedroom/Carrie opening my door looking at me then leaving dream happened TWICE during my series of dreams. I dreamt about Jason Lee(who is my celebrity crush at the moment),and this guy at work who I also have a major crush on. Anyway, Jason Lee is sitting on the steps of some house,and I'm leaning down to kiss him. Just before our lips touch,the guy I know from work yells out to me, "KATHLEEN! STOP!" or something. I don't remember what he said,but he ran over there and picked me up,and ran back w/me across the street somewhere. He then set me on my feet. Again..can't remember all he said,but he was grinning and laughing and I guess...flirting w/me. Whatever it was he was about to do,he stopped himself and said, "wait! I'm gonna do this the right way!" and he started reaching deep down in his pocket,and I wondered if he was about to propose to me. It's weird coz in real life this guy is GAY,and he has a boyfriend. Before I could find out what he was about to do,the dream switched on me AGAIN.
"Dream" #3? I'm not sure but after the last few dreams, I woke up and intended to grab my dream catcher keychain from the top of my dresser,but I just couldn't make myself get up. My eyes quickly started closing again,and I couldn't fight 2 stay awake; I quickly lost that battle. I think I fully understand sleep paralysis now. My mind was still conscious even tho my body was quickly going back to sleep. I was afraid of what the next dream might be,so I was fighting the whole time and could feel myself going deeper back into sleep,and the paralysis had already started taking effect. I was trying to move and when that didn't work, I successfully opened my mouth(I think. not sure if for real or only in the "dream"),in an attempt to make ANY noise that would wake me back up,but I couldn't utter out a sound. Because I was terrified of what dream I might have,I started praying and begging God to let me wake up. Now mind u,I couldn't SPEAK,so I was praying in my HEAD. As I was praying,my thoughts FORMING,right on cue, I heard voices echoing back at me,saying what I was and kinda mocking the pleaing tone of desperation I would've used if my voice would work. The voices seemed to be speaking on my behalf,yet they sounded like they were MOCKING me. doing a half ass job of imitating my voice,and I saw nobody. Just heard some disembodied strange sounding voices..not so human sounding at all either mocking me or speaking FOR me since my voice wouldn't work. It actually creeped me out enough that when I finally woke up, I forced myself to sit up and stay awake for a WHILE before going back to sleep coz that last 1 seriously creeped me out.
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