Let others know a little more about yourself, re-post this as your name followed by "ology"
What is your salad dressing of choice?
blue cheese
What is your favorite sit down restaurant?
it was steak n shake ,but everybody's being a pussy about covid-19, so u can't sit in there anymore.
What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
hard to pick..I like most food lol
What are your pizza toppings of choice:
black olives,tortilla chips(haha mexican pizza), pineapple now too. lol
TECHNOLOGY*
How many televisions are in your house?
0
What color cell phone do you have?
black
BIOLOGY*
Are you right-handed or left-handed?
right handed
Have you ever had anything removed from your bod
just polips from the pcos
What is the last heavy item you lifted?
my groceries lol
Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
nope
BULLCRAPOLOGY*
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
I don't know.
If you wanted to change your name, what would you change it to?
I don't know that I would change my name
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
nope
DUMBOLOGY*
How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
2 or 3
Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
November when I drove down to GA, and a cop pulled me over for speeding
Last person you talked to?
my neighbor
Last person you hugged?
Mom and Dad
FAVORITOLOGY*
Season?
now that I'm in TN, fall. It feels so nice
Holiday?
I still detest holidays coz I have noone to spend them with.
Day of the week?
I don't have 1.
Month?
don't have 1
CURRENTOLOGY*
Missing someone?
sometimes I still miss Rob
Mood?
frustrated
What are you listening to?
nothing
Watching?
nothing
RANDOMOLOGY*
First place you went this morning?
I slept
What's the last movie you saw?
holmes and watson
Do you smile often?
I was starting to since meeting this nice guy... but it's kinda going south real fast. =(
-OLOGY*
Do you always answer your phone?
depends on who's calling
It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
like anybody's gonna text me at that time. lol
If you could change your eye color what would it be?
I like it as is now...but I do like brown eyes-on men! =D
What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
when I go, I just order a coke or something-no adding of flavors lol
Do you own a digital camera?
not anymore. it crapped out on me-now all I have is my phone
Have you ever had a pet fish?
yes
What's on your wish list for your birthday?
my birthday is already gone, and I make no wishes because I won't get it anyway. lol
Can you do pushups?
probably, but I don't want to
Can you do a chin up?
no way
Does the future make you more nervous or excited?
nervous
Do you have any saved texts?
some
Ever been in a car wreck?
thank God no
Do you have an accent?
sometimes I accidentally pick up accents but naturally, no
What is the last song to make you cry?
"Stay" by Rhianna-it's not sad, but it reminds me so much of Rob that I almost cried the last few times I listened to it. weird
When was the last time you cried?
back in Feb, when horse's ass got me in trouble-I was so pissed off ,it made me cry. lol
Plans tonight?
movies/shows-eventually bed
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom?
I always feel like that
Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
food,food, and strawberry booze lol
Have you ever been given roses?
not really
Current hate right now?
the way my emotions are always out of whack-the fact I wear my heart on my sleeve too much
Met someone who changed your life?
I don't know about changing my life, but I did meet someone...and it seemed like we were really hitting it off, but now we barely speak-even though he did hang out with me last night-it wasn't 1 on 1 though like it used to be. =(
How did you bring in the new year?
by doing absolutely nothing. lol
What song represents you?
oh I had a few at 1 time...I can't think of them at the moment. lol
Name three people who might complete this?
noone-unless someone still reads blogger. lol
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
if I thought I could do some damage control, yes. lol
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
yes; 3 years and what a waste! with someone I was NEVER in love with, and he stressed me out-plus I fell in love with someone else while I was with him. It got ugly real fast.
Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
Most likely not. I am so unlucky in love.
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Does anyone love you?
nope.
Would you be a pirate?
uh no
What songs do you sing in the shower?
whatever song comes into my head
Ever had someone sing to you?
this guy I knew in middle school and high school used to do it randomly singing strange songs he made up-nothing romantic at all. he was a nut! lol
Do you like to cuddle?
I love it!
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Have you held hands with anyone today?
no-I miss that too
Who was the last person you took a picture of?
myself at the mall, lol
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What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
whatever my parents listened to lol
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Do you believe in staying close with your ex's?
hell no
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Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
new
Do you like pulpy orange juice?
no
What is something your friends make fun of you for?
because I don't drink or smoke...although now, I'm starting to drink lol
Have you ever ridden a on an elephant?
no
What are you saving your money up for right now?
to invest
When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?
maybe a month or 2 ago
What song(s) do you want played at your funeral?
I have no idea!
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What were you doing 12 AM last night?
drinking with my neighbor and Miles!! I was excited to have Miles over there! yippee!
What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up?
Him! plus I had a dream I think Miles was in it, but I kept losing it so fast even though I just had the dream...cannot for the life of me remember what it was about.
Sunday, June 28, 2020
it's kinda fun to do these now with a difference in opinions now years later lol
Which is worse, missing some one or not having some one to miss?
missing some1<---i answer="" by="" p="" stand="" still="" that="">
You've taken fifteen shots of vodka, what are you doing?
I had 2 shots of fireball whisky and strawberry daiquiri last night, and I felt fine and still remember what happened last night. haha, Miles didn't succeed in getting me drunk. na na =P
Where is the person who has your heart?
I finally got my heart back from the S.O.B. and he's in Jefferson City probably dreaming of being made King of Pull a Part LOL!! and currently, I'm not in love but crushing.. he's in the row behind mine sleeping in his camper lol
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my parents?
Who was the last person you made mad?
that could be anybody =(
Would you say you are judgmental?
Yes, but it's hard not to be with my experiences with idiots.. lol
Do you think you could be with someone for over four years?
if I can find MUTUAL love with a man, and he doesn't DIE on me-sure!
Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
nope
Do you watch the news?
no, but I still see the annoying shit on facebook lol
Is there a member of the opposite sex that makes you cry a lot?
usually-but not now and not yet...although I am frustrated right now..just seemed like we were really hitting it off..now he pulls away lately. =(
Do you have something that belongs to the opposite sex?
well, I have my exe's class ring, his watch ,and some of his pocket knives he left here. *eye roll*
What's on your schedule for tonight?
movies maybe...if I ever quit with the surveys lol
Is it easy to pretend everythings okay for you?
even though I have so much constant practice,no! I just get more frustrated all the time =(
Do you think you are a good person?
good person with a temper lol
Are you wasting your time on the person you love/like?
I'm ALWAYS wasting my time on a guy I like; he never likes me back ugh
What do you want right this second?
to be over there with him.. lol
Your ex calls wanting to hang out, what do you say?
fuck no! he's in FL anyway. =D lol
Do you have any bruises on you?
no
Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?
hell no
Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
not in a long time
Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
kinda..my ex..I was falling in love with someone else and still trying to pretend otherwise.. kept telling him I loved him too, but I heard the hollow-ness in my tone and knew I was full of it. lol
Do you want to get married?
No point in it..I used to daydream about shit like that, but I've been dealt the worst cards with my love life, so I give up. I'm chasing my career and investment dreams from now on.
Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
yeah-my DAD! soooo "exciting!" lol
Are you angry with someone right now?
a little ...and mostly with myself
Who did you spend most of your time with three nights ago?
Miles?? I had some days/nights I got to spend with him but most of the time, not at all. =/
Do you tend to hold things against people?.
I try not to, but I won't trust them again either.
Do you prefer to text message or talk on the phone?
text
Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
not really... I mean I don't want to be friends with mine. lol
What about your biological mother?
what about her? lol
Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
it depends..
The last time you left your house, where did you go?
the store
What was the reason you got grounded for last?
I haven't been grounded in YEARS, and I can't remember y either lol
What are you doing tomorrow?
checking po box to see if my credit card came yet and possibly replacing my debit card(again) too. fucker disappeared on me >.<
Do you love anyone right now?
I was and now I'm crushing...please don't let it turn to love?
How has the week been?
up and down. same old shit; different day
What are you looking forward to?
Going back to school now that I don't have a job in my way anyway, and investing in stocks
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
FUCK YES!! and it bothers me when people won't tell me when they have a problem w/me, but go behind my back to other people! >.<
Is it bad to be a forgiving person?
it is not, but it could be for YOU when u want to stop loving someone and can't.
What happened at 3pm today?
raining most of the day lol
missing some1<---i answer="" by="" p="" stand="" still="" that="">
You've taken fifteen shots of vodka, what are you doing?
I had 2 shots of fireball whisky and strawberry daiquiri last night, and I felt fine and still remember what happened last night. haha, Miles didn't succeed in getting me drunk. na na =P
Where is the person who has your heart?
I finally got my heart back from the S.O.B. and he's in Jefferson City probably dreaming of being made King of Pull a Part LOL!! and currently, I'm not in love but crushing.. he's in the row behind mine sleeping in his camper lol
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
my parents?
Who was the last person you made mad?
that could be anybody =(
Would you say you are judgmental?
Yes, but it's hard not to be with my experiences with idiots.. lol
Do you think you could be with someone for over four years?
if I can find MUTUAL love with a man, and he doesn't DIE on me-sure!
Have you held hands with anybody in the past week?
nope
Do you watch the news?
no, but I still see the annoying shit on facebook lol
Is there a member of the opposite sex that makes you cry a lot?
usually-but not now and not yet...although I am frustrated right now..just seemed like we were really hitting it off..now he pulls away lately. =(
Do you have something that belongs to the opposite sex?
well, I have my exe's class ring, his watch ,and some of his pocket knives he left here. *eye roll*
What's on your schedule for tonight?
movies maybe...if I ever quit with the surveys lol
Is it easy to pretend everythings okay for you?
even though I have so much constant practice,no! I just get more frustrated all the time =(
Do you think you are a good person?
good person with a temper lol
Are you wasting your time on the person you love/like?
I'm ALWAYS wasting my time on a guy I like; he never likes me back ugh
What do you want right this second?
to be over there with him.. lol
Your ex calls wanting to hang out, what do you say?
fuck no! he's in FL anyway. =D lol
Do you have any bruises on you?
no
Do you think anyone's thinking about you right now?
hell no
Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
not in a long time
Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
kinda..my ex..I was falling in love with someone else and still trying to pretend otherwise.. kept telling him I loved him too, but I heard the hollow-ness in my tone and knew I was full of it. lol
Do you want to get married?
No point in it..I used to daydream about shit like that, but I've been dealt the worst cards with my love life, so I give up. I'm chasing my career and investment dreams from now on.
Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
yeah-my DAD! soooo "exciting!" lol
Are you angry with someone right now?
a little ...and mostly with myself
Who did you spend most of your time with three nights ago?
Miles?? I had some days/nights I got to spend with him but most of the time, not at all. =/
Do you tend to hold things against people?.
I try not to, but I won't trust them again either.
Do you prefer to text message or talk on the phone?
text
Do you believe ex’s can be friends?
not really... I mean I don't want to be friends with mine. lol
What about your biological mother?
what about her? lol
Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
it depends..
The last time you left your house, where did you go?
the store
What was the reason you got grounded for last?
I haven't been grounded in YEARS, and I can't remember y either lol
What are you doing tomorrow?
checking po box to see if my credit card came yet and possibly replacing my debit card(again) too. fucker disappeared on me >.<
Do you love anyone right now?
I was and now I'm crushing...please don't let it turn to love?
How has the week been?
up and down. same old shit; different day
What are you looking forward to?
Going back to school now that I don't have a job in my way anyway, and investing in stocks
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
FUCK YES!! and it bothers me when people won't tell me when they have a problem w/me, but go behind my back to other people! >.<
Is it bad to be a forgiving person?
it is not, but it could be for YOU when u want to stop loving someone and can't.
What happened at 3pm today?
raining most of the day lol
I did this 1 about Rob years ago
Can you answer 72 questions about just one person?
well DUH! I just did! =P =D
1) What’s their name?
Rob
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfrind
well he DID..when he was alive. *I* was his girlfriend! ^_^
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
of course I didn't get along w/him ALL the time,but we loved each other enough to always fix our problems,and stay together. =)
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
yep. sort of. he had a mirowave and little "oven" like thing he cooked frozen food in before. he didn't have a much of a "kitchen" in that "apartment" thing he had. lol
6) Is this person older than you?
he was ,yes. 7 years older in fact. =)
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
YEP! LOTS of time! took me to heaven and back!! ^_^
8) Are you related to this person? nope. Thank God. I would hate to find I was having a fling w/ a relative. *shivers* lol
9) Are you really close ?
we were! we were SO CLOSE we ended up falling for each other in a pretty quick amount of time. I miss him so much. =(
10) Nickname?his full name was Robert,so he went by Rob as a nickname.
11) Do they have a nickname for you? baby cakes. LOL umm, Crazy was another 1. haha
12) How many times do you talk to this person during a week?
when he was ALIVE, we talked 24/7. texting or in person...that was even before we started dating. I couldn't get enough of him. now,not at all. I miss him so much. =,(
13) Will this person repost this? nope. he's dead. =( he never used the internet anyway..he liked the stone age. lol
14) Do you live with this person?
nope,but I spent so many nights and sometimes days w/him,it sure SEEMED like we were living together. lol
16) How long have you known this person? would have been a year by now if he was still alive. =,(
17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? actually yes! once. lol
18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? COUNTLESS times! =D
19) If they ever moved away would you miss this person?
he didn't have to move away. he died instead,and YES I miss him TERRIBLY!! 7 months,and I still feel the pain of losing him! I MISS MY PARTNER-IN-CRIME;my other half;my best friend;love of my life...I MISS HIM!!! =,( =,( =,( =,(
20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? well, we've ACTED stupid at work a few times,but no,we never did anything illegal.
21) Do you know everything about this person? Most everything.
22) Would you date this person’s siblings?
HELL NO! both his sibs are SISTERS;GIRLS! and besides..that would be WRONG anyway consdiering I was dating HIM. even if he had a BROTHER, it seems like an act of betryal. I could never do that to him even tho he'll never know it anyway.
23) Have you ever made out with this person? LOADS of times! ;) =D I miss that too. =(
24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
no,but that might have happened later on down the road..if he were still here. lol
25) Is this person on drugs?
he used to be. at least he was trying to get help with his addiction. I think it caught up w/him,and that's y he's dead now. =,(
26) Have you ever worn this persons clothes?
yes I have! he's lent me his "pj's" when I've slept over,and I now have 1 of his shirts his step-mom let me have after he died that I wear from time to time.
27) Does this person wear your clothes?
no!! my clothes would never have FIT him,and if he DID wear my clothes..that would be freaking hilarious!!! I'd never have let him live it down. LOL
28) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
switch bodies w/a dead guy? NO! if he was alive..well that woulda made things really damn WEIRD considering we were dating. lol
29) Have you ever heard this person sing?
once, I caught him softly singing the "ohh e oooe ooh e oh" part of "scream and shout" when we were at work. I kinda laughed coz at 1st I thought he was only goofinfg around. I'm sorry now coz I never heard him sing again after that. =(
30) Do you and this person have a saying/word?
not really,but we did have this thing where we both liked making fun of the same asshole coworker we have who nobody likes. lol.
32) Have you and this person ever gone clubbing?
HE has in the past I'm sure but not w/me. Not since he came to FL. I'm bettin. lol
33) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
most of the time I could,and he said I made him happy,but he tended to get really down on himself;deeply depressed or whatever and there was nothing I could do to cheer him up. =(
34) Do you and this person talk a lot? we used to. =(
35) Do you like this person?
I LOVED him w/everything in me. He was the love of my life,and I miss him so much. =(
36) Has this person yelled at you?
yes he has..only when he has realllly been upset..and I've yelled at him too.
37) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
never! we've had our arguments,but he would NEVER have hurt me.
38) Do you want to go out with this person?
I DID,and I got to! made me sooooo freaking happy when he asked me out shortly after I got home fom work.
39) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
I wanted that and more..but he's gone now. What can I do? =,(
40) When did you last see this person?
2 days before he died...back in May last year in the hospital. =,(
41) Do you text this person?
I would still do that now if he was still alive. =,(
42) Do you and this person talk on the phone?
we used to. =,(
43) Describe this person in one word
AMAZING! =,)
44) Does this person like anyone?
he LOVED ME,and I LOVED him! we were made for each other!! ok, I realllly freaking miss him right now!! =,(
45) Have you ever played a sport or watched a sport with this person?
nope,but we did make plans to go iceskating together and play air hockey sometime. we never got to do those things tho. =(
46) Have you met this person's family?
just his dad and step-mom. the rest of his family is in New Hampshire. his parents are sweet. I actually had their approval. =,)
47) Has this person been to your house?
yes,but only a FEW times coz my dad kept making him uncomfortable. pissed me off too. I'm finally dating a guy I LOVE and who LOVES me too,and shows it,and my dad jumps his case as if he's a piece of shit...like that pile of cow manure from before him..a.k.a. Gary. LOL
48) Do you and this person have a special song?
we didn't yet. we might have had 1 eventually.
49) Have you told this person you loved them?
yes! I am sooo glad I got to tell him these things before he died. just wish I had said "I love u" the last time I spoke to him before he died. =,(
50) Did they say it back?
yes! he always said it 1ST in fact coz I was 2 damn chicken shit to say what was on my mind for MONTHS anyway. =( lol
51) Do you think this person still loves you?
if he's anywhere at all and didn't cease all existance and remembers me wherever he is,then yes. I believe we had TRUE LOVE. =,)
55) Do you miss this person?
ALWAYS!!! EVERY DAMN DAY!! it's what's been making me the most depressed. it's VERY devastating to lose ur other half. =,(
56) Is there a song that decribe the relationship between you and this person?
"Just Give me a Reason" by Pink is the 1st 1 that comes to mind coz we BOTH had to learn to "love again". "take care" is another 1 because she starts the songs w/ "I know u've been hurt by some1 else,but if u let me I'll take care of u." I had to CONSTANTLY point out to him that I wasn't his ex. I wasn't gonna do to him what she did..plus everytime I'm missing him..seems THAT song is the 1 to get stuck in my head. it has memories attached. lol
57) Have you danced with this person?
kind of..we were goofing off a lot. lol
58) Do you think this person is going to be surprised you wrote this about them?
he'll never know about it. =,(
59) How many sibblings does this person have?
he has 2 older sisters who I never met.
60) If so, brother or sister? 2 older sisters.
61) Have you ever cried infront of this person? yes. once.
62) When is the next time you will see this person?
never again..unless there IS a heaven,and he is waiting for me when my time comes. =/
63) Do you tell this person secrets?
I told him EVERYTHING! I felt like I could tell him ANYTHING. I felt I could trust him. I knew he had my back and loved me. ^_^
64) Do you trust this person?
I trusted him SO MUCH! he earned it..too bad he didn't trust me as much. =(
65) Does this person trust you?
most of the time he didn't,but if he really TRULY had THAT much distrust in me, he wouldn't have stayed w/me,so I guess that's comforting.
66) What is this persons middle name? Paul
67) What is this persons full name?
Robert Paul Stizza
68) Does this person play sports?
he did when he was younger..long before I met him.
69) If so, which sports?
football..I think he said he played hockey too.
70) Have you been to this persons house?
yes
71) What is this persons favorite song?
I'm not sure.
72) Does this person speak another language?
no, he didn't,but he had a VERY SEXY New England accent that drove me WILD! ;) =D lol
well DUH! I just did! =P =D
1) What’s their name?
Rob
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfrind
well he DID..when he was alive. *I* was his girlfriend! ^_^
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
of course I didn't get along w/him ALL the time,but we loved each other enough to always fix our problems,and stay together. =)
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
yep. sort of. he had a mirowave and little "oven" like thing he cooked frozen food in before. he didn't have a much of a "kitchen" in that "apartment" thing he had. lol
6) Is this person older than you?
he was ,yes. 7 years older in fact. =)
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
YEP! LOTS of time! took me to heaven and back!! ^_^
8) Are you related to this person? nope. Thank God. I would hate to find I was having a fling w/ a relative. *shivers* lol
9) Are you really close ?
we were! we were SO CLOSE we ended up falling for each other in a pretty quick amount of time. I miss him so much. =(
10) Nickname?his full name was Robert,so he went by Rob as a nickname.
11) Do they have a nickname for you? baby cakes. LOL umm, Crazy was another 1. haha
12) How many times do you talk to this person during a week?
when he was ALIVE, we talked 24/7. texting or in person...that was even before we started dating. I couldn't get enough of him. now,not at all. I miss him so much. =,(
13) Will this person repost this? nope. he's dead. =( he never used the internet anyway..he liked the stone age. lol
14) Do you live with this person?
nope,but I spent so many nights and sometimes days w/him,it sure SEEMED like we were living together. lol
16) How long have you known this person? would have been a year by now if he was still alive. =,(
17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? actually yes! once. lol
18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? COUNTLESS times! =D
19) If they ever moved away would you miss this person?
he didn't have to move away. he died instead,and YES I miss him TERRIBLY!! 7 months,and I still feel the pain of losing him! I MISS MY PARTNER-IN-CRIME;my other half;my best friend;love of my life...I MISS HIM!!! =,( =,( =,( =,(
20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? well, we've ACTED stupid at work a few times,but no,we never did anything illegal.
21) Do you know everything about this person? Most everything.
22) Would you date this person’s siblings?
HELL NO! both his sibs are SISTERS;GIRLS! and besides..that would be WRONG anyway consdiering I was dating HIM. even if he had a BROTHER, it seems like an act of betryal. I could never do that to him even tho he'll never know it anyway.
23) Have you ever made out with this person? LOADS of times! ;) =D I miss that too. =(
24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
no,but that might have happened later on down the road..if he were still here. lol
25) Is this person on drugs?
he used to be. at least he was trying to get help with his addiction. I think it caught up w/him,and that's y he's dead now. =,(
26) Have you ever worn this persons clothes?
yes I have! he's lent me his "pj's" when I've slept over,and I now have 1 of his shirts his step-mom let me have after he died that I wear from time to time.
27) Does this person wear your clothes?
no!! my clothes would never have FIT him,and if he DID wear my clothes..that would be freaking hilarious!!! I'd never have let him live it down. LOL
28) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
switch bodies w/a dead guy? NO! if he was alive..well that woulda made things really damn WEIRD considering we were dating. lol
29) Have you ever heard this person sing?
once, I caught him softly singing the "ohh e oooe ooh e oh" part of "scream and shout" when we were at work. I kinda laughed coz at 1st I thought he was only goofinfg around. I'm sorry now coz I never heard him sing again after that. =(
30) Do you and this person have a saying/word?
not really,but we did have this thing where we both liked making fun of the same asshole coworker we have who nobody likes. lol.
32) Have you and this person ever gone clubbing?
HE has in the past I'm sure but not w/me. Not since he came to FL. I'm bettin. lol
33) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
most of the time I could,and he said I made him happy,but he tended to get really down on himself;deeply depressed or whatever and there was nothing I could do to cheer him up. =(
34) Do you and this person talk a lot? we used to. =(
35) Do you like this person?
I LOVED him w/everything in me. He was the love of my life,and I miss him so much. =(
36) Has this person yelled at you?
yes he has..only when he has realllly been upset..and I've yelled at him too.
37) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
never! we've had our arguments,but he would NEVER have hurt me.
38) Do you want to go out with this person?
I DID,and I got to! made me sooooo freaking happy when he asked me out shortly after I got home fom work.
39) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
I wanted that and more..but he's gone now. What can I do? =,(
40) When did you last see this person?
2 days before he died...back in May last year in the hospital. =,(
41) Do you text this person?
I would still do that now if he was still alive. =,(
42) Do you and this person talk on the phone?
we used to. =,(
43) Describe this person in one word
AMAZING! =,)
44) Does this person like anyone?
he LOVED ME,and I LOVED him! we were made for each other!! ok, I realllly freaking miss him right now!! =,(
45) Have you ever played a sport or watched a sport with this person?
nope,but we did make plans to go iceskating together and play air hockey sometime. we never got to do those things tho. =(
46) Have you met this person's family?
just his dad and step-mom. the rest of his family is in New Hampshire. his parents are sweet. I actually had their approval. =,)
47) Has this person been to your house?
yes,but only a FEW times coz my dad kept making him uncomfortable. pissed me off too. I'm finally dating a guy I LOVE and who LOVES me too,and shows it,and my dad jumps his case as if he's a piece of shit...like that pile of cow manure from before him..a.k.a. Gary. LOL
48) Do you and this person have a special song?
we didn't yet. we might have had 1 eventually.
49) Have you told this person you loved them?
yes! I am sooo glad I got to tell him these things before he died. just wish I had said "I love u" the last time I spoke to him before he died. =,(
50) Did they say it back?
yes! he always said it 1ST in fact coz I was 2 damn chicken shit to say what was on my mind for MONTHS anyway. =( lol
51) Do you think this person still loves you?
if he's anywhere at all and didn't cease all existance and remembers me wherever he is,then yes. I believe we had TRUE LOVE. =,)
55) Do you miss this person?
ALWAYS!!! EVERY DAMN DAY!! it's what's been making me the most depressed. it's VERY devastating to lose ur other half. =,(
56) Is there a song that decribe the relationship between you and this person?
"Just Give me a Reason" by Pink is the 1st 1 that comes to mind coz we BOTH had to learn to "love again". "take care" is another 1 because she starts the songs w/ "I know u've been hurt by some1 else,but if u let me I'll take care of u." I had to CONSTANTLY point out to him that I wasn't his ex. I wasn't gonna do to him what she did..plus everytime I'm missing him..seems THAT song is the 1 to get stuck in my head. it has memories attached. lol
57) Have you danced with this person?
kind of..we were goofing off a lot. lol
58) Do you think this person is going to be surprised you wrote this about them?
he'll never know about it. =,(
59) How many sibblings does this person have?
he has 2 older sisters who I never met.
60) If so, brother or sister? 2 older sisters.
61) Have you ever cried infront of this person? yes. once.
62) When is the next time you will see this person?
never again..unless there IS a heaven,and he is waiting for me when my time comes. =/
63) Do you tell this person secrets?
I told him EVERYTHING! I felt like I could tell him ANYTHING. I felt I could trust him. I knew he had my back and loved me. ^_^
64) Do you trust this person?
I trusted him SO MUCH! he earned it..too bad he didn't trust me as much. =(
65) Does this person trust you?
most of the time he didn't,but if he really TRULY had THAT much distrust in me, he wouldn't have stayed w/me,so I guess that's comforting.
66) What is this persons middle name? Paul
67) What is this persons full name?
Robert Paul Stizza
68) Does this person play sports?
he did when he was younger..long before I met him.
69) If so, which sports?
football..I think he said he played hockey too.
70) Have you been to this persons house?
yes
71) What is this persons favorite song?
I'm not sure.
72) Does this person speak another language?
no, he didn't,but he had a VERY SEXY New England accent that drove me WILD! ;) =D lol
I kinda want to do 1 about another guy lol
Can you answer 72 questions about just one person?
well DUH! I just did! =P =D
1) What’s their name?
Matt
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfrind
Nope and apparently has never had 1. =0
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
it was on and off with us -_-
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
no lol
6) Is this person older than you?
yes
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
Nope, but at 1 time, I wanted to.
8) Are you related to this person? no
9) Are you really close ?
I used to wish we were. I don't care anymore though.
10) Nickname? Matt
11) Do they have a nickname for you? Kat(same as everyone at work called me). lol
12) How many times do you talk to this person during a week?
Used to be 5 days a week if it was work related-otherwise, a couple time-mostly not at all other times.
13) Will this person repost this? I hope he never sees this. lol j/k
14) Do you live with this person?
no lol
16) How long have you known this person? at least a year
17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? no. I never got to see him outside of work. =(
18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? no, but that would have been AWESOME! ;) lol j/k
19) If they ever moved away would you miss this person?
well, I lost my job, so I don't see him anymore, and I did miss him at 1st but now..it took a while, but
I think I finally managed to kill the feelings I had for him.
20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? nope. He had Dustin for that. lol
21) Do you know everything about this person? I know quite a bit, but that's because he would tell u about nearly anything if u listen to him. lol
22) Would you date this person’s siblings?
he just has 1 sister-and she's married, so hell no! lol
23) Have you ever made out with this person? NO...but I wanted to! *blushes*
24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
no, but there was a time where that sounded very pleasant! =D
25) Is this person on drugs?
I hope not...but it would explain a lot. lol
26) Have you ever worn this persons clothes?
no lol
27) Does this person wear your clothes?
of course not! omg, that would be HILARIOUS! XD
28) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
only to see him naked. ;) lol j/k no thanks. I will pass
29) Have you ever heard this person sing?
I've heard him hum a few times now and then, and I would do that too. he sounded so cute ^_^
30) Do you and this person have a saying/word?
nope
32) Have you and this person ever gone clubbing?
no. he never wanted to hang out w/me anyway, nore could I get around to asking him to hang out. I either got nervous, or he shut me down before I could ask. =0
33) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
nope. wish I did then he would've hung out with me
34) Do you and this person talk a lot? we kinda did but also didn't really either. =(
35) Do you like this person?
I used to-GOD I was in LOVE with him, and it SUCKED! it took me for EVER to get over him, I think my new crush finally killed the residual feelings I had left over.
36) Has this person yelled at you?
nope. he kinda snapped at me 1 time though, but for the most part, he was too much of a coward to tell ME when he had a problem with me...thought it was better to go behind my back and snitch on me to the boss. boy was I PISSED!
37) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
no lol! I can't picture him in a fist fight with ANYONE...he's kind of a nerd lol! I do like nerdy guys by the way lol
38) Do you want to go out with this person?
I used to, but I finally gave up on even hanging out as friends. he definitely wanted NOTHING to do with me. =(
39) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
yeah like that's going to happen! I couldn't even have his friendship.
40) When did you last see this person?
1 time I went in and visited after being laid-off and saw him then-before that, it was the last day I worked before I was laid off.
41) Do you text this person?
nope. I had his number though ,but I wasn't about to text him..bitch boy already thought I was "harassing" him anyway.
42) Do you and this person talk on the phone? nope
43) Describe this person in one word
Confusing
44) Does this person like anyone?
yeah-Dustin! lol j/k I would be shocked if he did like someone; he's soooooo picky!
45) Have you ever played a sport or watched a sport with this person?
Nope.
46) Have you met this person's family?
nope
47) Has this person been to your house?
nope
48) Do you and this person have a special song?
NO.
49) Have you told this person you loved them?
No, but he already knew; it's why he made a big stink about it not so long ago.
50) Did they say it back?
of course not! it wasn't mutual(gee, what a surprise).
51) Do you think this person still loves you?
he never did
55) Do you miss this person?
not anymore
56) Is there a song that describe the relationship between you and this person?
what relationship? and once again, I can't think of any song that would describe us! lol
57) Have you danced with this person?
No, but that would've been cool
58) Do you think this person is going to be surprised you wrote this about them?
if he saw this, he'd prolly have a stroke and freak out again! he can't snitch on me about anything now though. lol
59) How many siblings does this person have? 1
60) If so, brother or sister? 1 sister
61) Have you ever cried infront of this person? nope.
62) When is the next time you will see this person? unless I go back into Pull-A-Part soon-never.
63) Do you tell this person secrets?
I told him some things because he used to open up to me at times ,but I could tell he never really cared to hear what I had to say.
64) Do you trust this person?
at 1st I thought I could, but then he went behind my back like the coward he is, so no. I didn't trust him after that.
65) Does this person trust you?
I never meant shit to him-I'll just put it that way
66) What is this persons middle name? John
67) What is this persons full name?
Matthew John Romans
68) Does this person play sports?
No! I couldn't imagine him playing any sport!! lol
69) If so, which sports?
quidditch! lol j/k
70) Have you been to this persons house?
no
71) What is this persons favorite song?
he doesn't like music with lyrics... I remember him saying that! XD lol
72) Does this person speak another language? No?
well DUH! I just did! =P =D
1) What’s their name?
Matt
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfrind
Nope and apparently has never had 1. =0
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
it was on and off with us -_-
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
no lol
6) Is this person older than you?
yes
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
Nope, but at 1 time, I wanted to.
8) Are you related to this person? no
9) Are you really close ?
I used to wish we were. I don't care anymore though.
10) Nickname? Matt
11) Do they have a nickname for you? Kat(same as everyone at work called me). lol
12) How many times do you talk to this person during a week?
Used to be 5 days a week if it was work related-otherwise, a couple time-mostly not at all other times.
13) Will this person repost this? I hope he never sees this. lol j/k
14) Do you live with this person?
no lol
16) How long have you known this person? at least a year
17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? no. I never got to see him outside of work. =(
18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? no, but that would have been AWESOME! ;) lol j/k
19) If they ever moved away would you miss this person?
well, I lost my job, so I don't see him anymore, and I did miss him at 1st but now..it took a while, but
I think I finally managed to kill the feelings I had for him.
20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? nope. He had Dustin for that. lol
21) Do you know everything about this person? I know quite a bit, but that's because he would tell u about nearly anything if u listen to him. lol
22) Would you date this person’s siblings?
he just has 1 sister-and she's married, so hell no! lol
23) Have you ever made out with this person? NO...but I wanted to! *blushes*
24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
no, but there was a time where that sounded very pleasant! =D
25) Is this person on drugs?
I hope not...but it would explain a lot. lol
26) Have you ever worn this persons clothes?
no lol
27) Does this person wear your clothes?
of course not! omg, that would be HILARIOUS! XD
28) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
only to see him naked. ;) lol j/k no thanks. I will pass
29) Have you ever heard this person sing?
I've heard him hum a few times now and then, and I would do that too. he sounded so cute ^_^
30) Do you and this person have a saying/word?
nope
32) Have you and this person ever gone clubbing?
no. he never wanted to hang out w/me anyway, nore could I get around to asking him to hang out. I either got nervous, or he shut me down before I could ask. =0
33) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
nope. wish I did then he would've hung out with me
34) Do you and this person talk a lot? we kinda did but also didn't really either. =(
35) Do you like this person?
I used to-GOD I was in LOVE with him, and it SUCKED! it took me for EVER to get over him, I think my new crush finally killed the residual feelings I had left over.
36) Has this person yelled at you?
nope. he kinda snapped at me 1 time though, but for the most part, he was too much of a coward to tell ME when he had a problem with me...thought it was better to go behind my back and snitch on me to the boss. boy was I PISSED!
37) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
no lol! I can't picture him in a fist fight with ANYONE...he's kind of a nerd lol! I do like nerdy guys by the way lol
38) Do you want to go out with this person?
I used to, but I finally gave up on even hanging out as friends. he definitely wanted NOTHING to do with me. =(
39) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
yeah like that's going to happen! I couldn't even have his friendship.
40) When did you last see this person?
1 time I went in and visited after being laid-off and saw him then-before that, it was the last day I worked before I was laid off.
41) Do you text this person?
nope. I had his number though ,but I wasn't about to text him..bitch boy already thought I was "harassing" him anyway.
42) Do you and this person talk on the phone? nope
43) Describe this person in one word
Confusing
44) Does this person like anyone?
yeah-Dustin! lol j/k I would be shocked if he did like someone; he's soooooo picky!
45) Have you ever played a sport or watched a sport with this person?
Nope.
46) Have you met this person's family?
nope
47) Has this person been to your house?
nope
48) Do you and this person have a special song?
NO.
49) Have you told this person you loved them?
No, but he already knew; it's why he made a big stink about it not so long ago.
50) Did they say it back?
of course not! it wasn't mutual(gee, what a surprise).
51) Do you think this person still loves you?
he never did
55) Do you miss this person?
not anymore
56) Is there a song that describe the relationship between you and this person?
what relationship? and once again, I can't think of any song that would describe us! lol
57) Have you danced with this person?
No, but that would've been cool
58) Do you think this person is going to be surprised you wrote this about them?
if he saw this, he'd prolly have a stroke and freak out again! he can't snitch on me about anything now though. lol
59) How many siblings does this person have? 1
60) If so, brother or sister? 1 sister
61) Have you ever cried infront of this person? nope.
62) When is the next time you will see this person? unless I go back into Pull-A-Part soon-never.
63) Do you tell this person secrets?
I told him some things because he used to open up to me at times ,but I could tell he never really cared to hear what I had to say.
64) Do you trust this person?
at 1st I thought I could, but then he went behind my back like the coward he is, so no. I didn't trust him after that.
65) Does this person trust you?
I never meant shit to him-I'll just put it that way
66) What is this persons middle name? John
67) What is this persons full name?
Matthew John Romans
68) Does this person play sports?
No! I couldn't imagine him playing any sport!! lol
69) If so, which sports?
quidditch! lol j/k
70) Have you been to this persons house?
no
71) What is this persons favorite song?
he doesn't like music with lyrics... I remember him saying that! XD lol
72) Does this person speak another language? No?
Survey about my new friend
Since facebook stopped letting you use their "blog" thing, I'll put my silly surveys on here again:
Can you answer 72 questions about just one person?
well DUH! I just did! =P =D
1) What’s their name?
wouldn't you like to know? ;)
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfrind
I don't think so.
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
for the most part..but sometimes I feel like I bother him. =(
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
Yes! A couple times
6) Is this person older than you?
Nope. 3 years younger
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
Nope,but sadly, I have wanted to.
8) Are you related to this person? no
9) Are you really close ?
we were only getting to know each other,but it seems like he's pulling back and not wanting to get close =(
10) Nickname? I'm sure he has 1,but I don't know it
11) Do they have a nickname for you? no lol
12) How many times do you talk to this person during a week?
I guess maybe 4 days a week if that..seems he only hangs around every other day if it at all
13) Will this person repost this? naaa coz it aint going on facebook,and I wouldn't want him seeing this anyway.
14) Do you live with this person?
no,but we live NEAR each other
16) How long have you known this person?no more than a few weeks that's why it irritates me that I like him this much. >.<
17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? I haven't been anywhere outside of the rv park with him. =(
18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? haha we almost did in a way..until I finally left to check on my dogs. lol
19) If they ever moved away would you miss this person?
he's only here till next year sometime,so yes he will move away,and if I get too close to him,yes I will miss him-a lot
20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? nope,but he does try to get me drunk. lol
21) Do you know everything about this person? I know a lot but defintely not everything. He barely talks to me lately. =(
22) Would you date this person’s siblings?
I don't know his siblings and most likely no. I kinda want to date HIM-and I shouldn't. =(
23) Have you ever made out with this person? NO...but I want to! *blushes*
24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
no,but that might be fun! =D lol
25) Is this person on drugs?
thank god NO! he's ambitious and smart! =) =D
26) Have you ever worn this persons clothes?
no lol
27) Does this person wear your clothes?
of course not! X-D
28) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
no way! the only way that might be appealing is I would get to see him naked! lol j/k
29) Have you ever heard this person sing?
YES! he plays guitar and drums too! he is really good,and you can tell he's passionate about it too! it's actually another awesome thing about him! =)
30) Do you and this person have a saying/word?
NO, we just mostly pick on each other..or we used to. =,(
32) Have you and this person ever gone clubbing?
he probably has but not me and not with him.
33) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
not at all but fortunately he does that on his own without my help. nothing motivating him to even consider dating me. =(
34) Do you and this person talk a lot? we started out doing so,but he has pulled away from me,so not so much. =(
35) Do you like this person?
Yes and I wish I didn't! especially not this soon and especially not given my "track record" with men. =,(
36) Has this person yelled at you?
nope. I can't imagine him yelling at ANYONE-he's a sweetheart =)
37) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
nope! to quote him he's a "lover not a fighter." lol
38) Do you want to go out with this person?
I do,but before I realized that, I had told him I liked being single and prefer to stay that way...ugh I'm an idiot!! >.< how the FUCK was I supposed to know I was
gonna end up getting a crush on him????!! =,(
39) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
I would like this to be a start an awesome frindship for now,but he's not gonna live out here for too long,and like I said before-
he has started pulling away from me a little. =,(
40) When did you last see this person?
last night! he actually hung out with me and the lady next door for a while-too bad he didn't come hang out again. =,(
41) Do you text this person?
I don't have his number. =(
42) Do you and this person talk on the phone? nope
43) Describe this person in one word
Cool =)
44) Does this person like anyone?
I don't even know..it seemed like he might have sorta been liking me a little, but now I'm not sure of anything at all. =/
45) Have you ever played a sport or watched a sport with this person?
Nope. I think music and biking/hiking is his thing anyway.
46) Have you met this person's family?
of course not! WE only just met. it seems kinda silly to meet his family. lol
47) Has this person been to your house?
well..yeah but not inside. lol
48) Do you and this person have a special song?
NO.
49) Have you told this person you loved them?
Of course not! and I REFUSE to call it "love"; I have a CRUSH on him. We just met, and he is kind of pulling away from me.
NO way I'm gonna admit that to him, and I pray to God he hasn't caught on. =0
50) Did they say it back?
NO. It was never said
51) Do you think this person still loves you?
he doesn't love me. lol
55) Do you miss this person?
In a way, I do because it seemed like we were really hitting it off, but now it's kinda slowed down, and I'm a little disappointed by it. =(
56) Is there a song that decribe the relationship between you and this person?
I don't think so??
57) Have you danced with this person?
Nope! just hung out and picked on each other..walked the dogs together =)
58) Do you think this person is going to be surprised you wrote this about them?
hopefully he never sees this,or he'll think I'm INSANE and REALLY want nothing to do with me. =0
59) How many sibblings does this person have?
I think he has a total of 3??
60) If so, brother or sister? 2 sisters and 1 brother?( he told me,but that doesn't mean I remember accurately) lol
61) Have you ever cried in front of this person? nope
62) When is the next time you will see this person? tomorrow...if he even wants to talk to or see me. =/
63) Do you tell this person secrets?
I think I told him a little too much a little too soon,and that's why he doesn't talk to me as much anymore. =(
64) Do you trust this person?
I feel like he can be trusted in general..just not with knowing too much about my feelings because it scares him off.(that's most guys anyway) lol
65) Does this person trust you?
apparently not..or doesn't think that much of me because like I said,he doesn't want to be around me much.
66) What is this persons middle name? Ha! I have no idea! he never said
67) What is this persons full name?
again...wouldn't you like to know? buahaha
68) Does this person play sports?
he hikes and bike rides-does that count?? lol j/k
69) If so, which sports?
none that I am aware of
70) Have you been to this persons house?
yes..inside his camper lol
71) What is this persons favorite song?
I couldn't tell u. The man is passionate about his music-it could be ANY song. lol
72) Does this person speak another language? Not that I am aware of, but he might.
Can you answer 72 questions about just one person?
well DUH! I just did! =P =D
1) What’s their name?
wouldn't you like to know? ;)
2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfrind
I don't think so.
3) Do you get along with this person all the time?
for the most part..but sometimes I feel like I bother him. =(
5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?
Yes! A couple times
6) Is this person older than you?
Nope. 3 years younger
7) Have you ever kissed this person?
Nope,but sadly, I have wanted to.
8) Are you related to this person? no
9) Are you really close ?
we were only getting to know each other,but it seems like he's pulling back and not wanting to get close =(
10) Nickname? I'm sure he has 1,but I don't know it
11) Do they have a nickname for you? no lol
12) How many times do you talk to this person during a week?
I guess maybe 4 days a week if that..seems he only hangs around every other day if it at all
13) Will this person repost this? naaa coz it aint going on facebook,and I wouldn't want him seeing this anyway.
14) Do you live with this person?
no,but we live NEAR each other
16) How long have you known this person?no more than a few weeks that's why it irritates me that I like him this much. >.<
17) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? I haven't been anywhere outside of the rv park with him. =(
18) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person? haha we almost did in a way..until I finally left to check on my dogs. lol
19) If they ever moved away would you miss this person?
he's only here till next year sometime,so yes he will move away,and if I get too close to him,yes I will miss him-a lot
20) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? nope,but he does try to get me drunk. lol
21) Do you know everything about this person? I know a lot but defintely not everything. He barely talks to me lately. =(
22) Would you date this person’s siblings?
I don't know his siblings and most likely no. I kinda want to date HIM-and I shouldn't. =(
23) Have you ever made out with this person? NO...but I want to! *blushes*
24) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?
no,but that might be fun! =D lol
25) Is this person on drugs?
thank god NO! he's ambitious and smart! =) =D
26) Have you ever worn this persons clothes?
no lol
27) Does this person wear your clothes?
of course not! X-D
28) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
no way! the only way that might be appealing is I would get to see him naked! lol j/k
29) Have you ever heard this person sing?
YES! he plays guitar and drums too! he is really good,and you can tell he's passionate about it too! it's actually another awesome thing about him! =)
30) Do you and this person have a saying/word?
NO, we just mostly pick on each other..or we used to. =,(
32) Have you and this person ever gone clubbing?
he probably has but not me and not with him.
33) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
not at all but fortunately he does that on his own without my help. nothing motivating him to even consider dating me. =(
34) Do you and this person talk a lot? we started out doing so,but he has pulled away from me,so not so much. =(
35) Do you like this person?
Yes and I wish I didn't! especially not this soon and especially not given my "track record" with men. =,(
36) Has this person yelled at you?
nope. I can't imagine him yelling at ANYONE-he's a sweetheart =)
37) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?
nope! to quote him he's a "lover not a fighter." lol
38) Do you want to go out with this person?
I do,but before I realized that, I had told him I liked being single and prefer to stay that way...ugh I'm an idiot!! >.< how the FUCK was I supposed to know I was
gonna end up getting a crush on him????!! =,(
39) Do you want to be friends with them forever?
I would like this to be a start an awesome frindship for now,but he's not gonna live out here for too long,and like I said before-
he has started pulling away from me a little. =,(
40) When did you last see this person?
last night! he actually hung out with me and the lady next door for a while-too bad he didn't come hang out again. =,(
41) Do you text this person?
I don't have his number. =(
42) Do you and this person talk on the phone? nope
43) Describe this person in one word
Cool =)
44) Does this person like anyone?
I don't even know..it seemed like he might have sorta been liking me a little, but now I'm not sure of anything at all. =/
45) Have you ever played a sport or watched a sport with this person?
Nope. I think music and biking/hiking is his thing anyway.
46) Have you met this person's family?
of course not! WE only just met. it seems kinda silly to meet his family. lol
47) Has this person been to your house?
well..yeah but not inside. lol
48) Do you and this person have a special song?
NO.
49) Have you told this person you loved them?
Of course not! and I REFUSE to call it "love"; I have a CRUSH on him. We just met, and he is kind of pulling away from me.
NO way I'm gonna admit that to him, and I pray to God he hasn't caught on. =0
50) Did they say it back?
NO. It was never said
51) Do you think this person still loves you?
he doesn't love me. lol
55) Do you miss this person?
In a way, I do because it seemed like we were really hitting it off, but now it's kinda slowed down, and I'm a little disappointed by it. =(
56) Is there a song that decribe the relationship between you and this person?
I don't think so??
57) Have you danced with this person?
Nope! just hung out and picked on each other..walked the dogs together =)
58) Do you think this person is going to be surprised you wrote this about them?
hopefully he never sees this,or he'll think I'm INSANE and REALLY want nothing to do with me. =0
59) How many sibblings does this person have?
I think he has a total of 3??
60) If so, brother or sister? 2 sisters and 1 brother?( he told me,but that doesn't mean I remember accurately) lol
61) Have you ever cried in front of this person? nope
62) When is the next time you will see this person? tomorrow...if he even wants to talk to or see me. =/
63) Do you tell this person secrets?
I think I told him a little too much a little too soon,and that's why he doesn't talk to me as much anymore. =(
64) Do you trust this person?
I feel like he can be trusted in general..just not with knowing too much about my feelings because it scares him off.(that's most guys anyway) lol
65) Does this person trust you?
apparently not..or doesn't think that much of me because like I said,he doesn't want to be around me much.
66) What is this persons middle name? Ha! I have no idea! he never said
67) What is this persons full name?
again...wouldn't you like to know? buahaha
68) Does this person play sports?
he hikes and bike rides-does that count?? lol j/k
69) If so, which sports?
none that I am aware of
70) Have you been to this persons house?
yes..inside his camper lol
71) What is this persons favorite song?
I couldn't tell u. The man is passionate about his music-it could be ANY song. lol
72) Does this person speak another language? Not that I am aware of, but he might.
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
The Depressing Never Ending Story
Here is the story about a woman who is deeply depressed. The depression and mood swings had been around probably since her teen years which seem to have gotten worse with time-particularly during her 20s and now her 30s her unhappiness only increases as time goes by. She has always gone from job to job where each 1 makes her miserable,or she likes the occasional one,and it isn't too long before her employers look for reasons to get rid of her. The other thing that never changes is her love life! It has always sucked,and it never improves no matter what! The men she loves never love her back,and the one man she found who did died on her. Now she is back to being pursued by less than subpar men and falling in love with a man who will never have her. She is once again at a job she kind of likes-well mainly she loves her coworkers..and one in particular. The guy is confusing and can be such an ASS one minute and totally sweet the next...as usual when a man finds out she "secretly"loves him, he finds a way to make her pay for her "crime" in some way: this one by throwing her under the bus-going behind her back to the bosses instead of confronting her himself.
Because this isn't bad enough, things get a little better with time,and she even forgives him and they are decent to one another once again but lo and behold- coronavirus hits,and all the idiots lose their fucking minds to the point that they shut down the economy over it and lay people off-even companies that stay open. She takes home a dog that shows up at work,and the very next day is laid off..but wait! there's more! this dog turned out to be pregnant and while puppies are amazing-she lives in a tiny ass camper with noone else nearby. no human interaction and no family nearby coz everyone is in another state. So she is bored,depressed,and feeling overwhelmed with 5 dogs in a rinky dink camper,but wait..there's more bullshit! She spent the whole month of being laid off not being able to sleep-then it turning into always being tired no matter what! Day after day of cleaning up dog vomit and puppy shit. Day after day after maddening day of also nowhere to go and nothing to do-staring at the same fucking rv park and camper over and over again..
Finding ticks on her and having to constantly check for them..being afraid and grossed out to sleep in her own bed. Camper beds get pretty gross pretty quick! Wishing she was back to living in a house. Lonely,angry,depressed,and constantly tired. Somedays she contemplates suicide ..sometimes just thinking of sleeping in her car. She is losing her sanity and doesn't know what to do to solve it! She wants to cry but is kind of dried up at the moment..but mostly she just wants sleep-something she can't seem to get enough of! There u go..life sucks! What a sad lonely existance for a woman who feels so useless to even herself and questions why she exists in the 1st place. The End >=(
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
update blog: haven't done 1 of these in a while
There is so much going on. so much...this crap w/ISIS basically killing EVERYBODY;they are attacking ALL nations! wtf? as if I didn't have ENOUGH trust issues...bring on more of the paranoia and feeling like I need to watch my own shadow sometimes. >.< anyways, Kenny is the guy I mentioned in the previous blog. I wasn't in love w/him at the time he started saying we should hang out. lol I'm mostly over the pain of losing Rob(and being back stabbed by his asshole family)..around the same time, Jake left after all. I'm not happy about this. stepped down from being a team leader,and now I don't have any1 who can make me laugh till I cry..some people kinda do,but no one can do it quite like Jake. That boy aint right!! lol. I miss him,and I can't get transferred by my house where I'd be close to home AND... working w/him again.
Anyway,right around the time Jake left was when Kenny started talking to me A LOT more than he already was before. He would seem to talk to me specifically even if his conversation was w/somebody else,he seemed to go out of his way more just to talk to ME; just to say "hi." He used to be in a rush to leave at the end of the night like the rest of us and especially never wait on me..now he does. He started hanging around and waiting on me; talking to me out in the parking lot almost all night long-all stuff he NEVER used to do before. Then he told me to text him if I was bored,then it was pushing to hang out. I'm glad I finally caved in and said yes. I can't tell u how many times I stressed to him I wasn't interested in being in another relationship. I was still feeling the sting of Rob's death,and I always get anxious when I know a guy likes me anyway. I could tell he was a sweetie and the kinda guy who loves HARD;the kinda guy who is easy to hurt,and that was the last thing I wanted to do. I prayed that if he was the man I was supposed to be with that I fall for him too coz I don't wanna hurt him. And now a couple months later,I'm in love,but it's not the same rush,nervous-ness/excitement-feeling -of -vulnerability that it had always been before-especially the way it had been w/Rob.
It went much slower this time,but holding hands,cuddling,and kissing always make my heart race. Even THINKING about holding him makes my heart do somersaults. I know now I wanna be w/him. I just get so awkward and nervous. Thank God he has so much patience....even more than Rob had,and he had been so patient w/me too. Hopefully something won't happen to him too,or he won't get tired of me at some point,or my anxieties and fears won't last forever and screw things up for us. Now that I love again,I don't wanna lose him too. I'm so sick of losing. I don't wanna be a loser anymore. No more losing those I love-either by death or by betrayal..or anything. I don't wanna keep getting hurt everytime I put my love and trust into someone. No more! That's basically it! I found yet another wonderful man,and I pray I don't lose HIM like I did the last 1. Now if I could get back that romantic writes sappy poems side of me back that I had w/every other guy I'd been in love w/before, that'd be great! =D lol
Anyway,right around the time Jake left was when Kenny started talking to me A LOT more than he already was before. He would seem to talk to me specifically even if his conversation was w/somebody else,he seemed to go out of his way more just to talk to ME; just to say "hi." He used to be in a rush to leave at the end of the night like the rest of us and especially never wait on me..now he does. He started hanging around and waiting on me; talking to me out in the parking lot almost all night long-all stuff he NEVER used to do before. Then he told me to text him if I was bored,then it was pushing to hang out. I'm glad I finally caved in and said yes. I can't tell u how many times I stressed to him I wasn't interested in being in another relationship. I was still feeling the sting of Rob's death,and I always get anxious when I know a guy likes me anyway. I could tell he was a sweetie and the kinda guy who loves HARD;the kinda guy who is easy to hurt,and that was the last thing I wanted to do. I prayed that if he was the man I was supposed to be with that I fall for him too coz I don't wanna hurt him. And now a couple months later,I'm in love,but it's not the same rush,nervous-ness/excitement-feeling -of -vulnerability that it had always been before-especially the way it had been w/Rob.
It went much slower this time,but holding hands,cuddling,and kissing always make my heart race. Even THINKING about holding him makes my heart do somersaults. I know now I wanna be w/him. I just get so awkward and nervous. Thank God he has so much patience....even more than Rob had,and he had been so patient w/me too. Hopefully something won't happen to him too,or he won't get tired of me at some point,or my anxieties and fears won't last forever and screw things up for us. Now that I love again,I don't wanna lose him too. I'm so sick of losing. I don't wanna be a loser anymore. No more losing those I love-either by death or by betrayal..or anything. I don't wanna keep getting hurt everytime I put my love and trust into someone. No more! That's basically it! I found yet another wonderful man,and I pray I don't lose HIM like I did the last 1. Now if I could get back that romantic writes sappy poems side of me back that I had w/every other guy I'd been in love w/before, that'd be great! =D lol
Thursday, September 24, 2015
this is what u call "mixed blessings"
So I made the mistake of getting in touch w/Rob's family a few days ago. I was naive enough to think these people really accepted and thought of me as family. They sure treated me that way 2 years ago when I ws introduced to them. ya know I felt GUILTY for not maintaining contact w/them and when I finally did,the way his stepmother treated me was WRETCHED! u would think if u have a loss in common w/someone,then u and those people can help each other and maybe even might like to know how u have been all this time, etc etc. right?? don't u think?? I thought so,but this dingbat didn't even remember who I was,so I explained that I had been Rob's girlfriend,and she fucking attacks me. bitching about me using their name on facebook(well I thought Rob and I were in love and would have married 1 day + I thought it was a sweet way of cherishing his memory). oh noooooooo! she wouldn't stop bitching as if I committed this great crime and acts as if I am delibrately stirring up the pain again. Well, I miss him too..so she tells me to get over it coz he used me and didn't care about me and all this. really?? he sure didn't behave at ALL like a man who doesn't care about his lady,and I KNOW a man who doesn't give a shit for real. If that IS true, wow. that makes me feel like I can't trust men at all if 1 can be THAT good of an actor. He was so protective of me,and easily got upset. like EMOTIONAL when he thought I was betraying him somehow..would a guy who doesn't care about u go through all THAT just to put up a front?? sounds like too much effort just to deceive someone to me. I don't get it. He was VERY affectionate w/me. VERY. whenever he apologized to me,he would TIGHTLY hug me and rock me back and forth. is that the actions of a man who "USES" me? how about the fact he even bothered apologizing at all?? nothing adds up. I'm trying to figure out what her motivation for lying to me would be too. didn't this bitch used to say, "u coulda been my daughter-in-law?" I know she did. My friend,Gabrielle was there w/me that day. She can tell ya. whatever. the GOOD news tho...
I seemed to have found somebody anyway. Someone at work who started out as an acquaintance for so long suddenly out of the blue, started showing an interest in me. I was very hesitant and resistant at 1st,but now I am glad I surrendered and started hanging out w/him. I've been having a great time,and I'm def starting to like him. I get butterflies and a racing heart when we cuddle/hug. wow!! The best thing is he doesn't do drugs or drink. HALLELUJAH!! =D and as FAR AS I KNOW, he's not USING me or being deceptive at all. I hope not. I am so SICK of being made to regret giving a man my heart. I'm just over it. I'm over the lies,over the betrayal..over the heartache...if you're just gonna use and abuse me later..GO AWAY!! he seems like the real deal but after what I learned about Rob...how can I trust this guy either? how do I know who I can trust anymore? my trust issues only got WORSE!!! =( then again,my fears/anxieties/trust issues etc could kill my chance of having a good man. I fear that too. Please God don't let me ruin a good thing? if it really is a good thing. I just don't know anymore. =,(
I seemed to have found somebody anyway. Someone at work who started out as an acquaintance for so long suddenly out of the blue, started showing an interest in me. I was very hesitant and resistant at 1st,but now I am glad I surrendered and started hanging out w/him. I've been having a great time,and I'm def starting to like him. I get butterflies and a racing heart when we cuddle/hug. wow!! The best thing is he doesn't do drugs or drink. HALLELUJAH!! =D and as FAR AS I KNOW, he's not USING me or being deceptive at all. I hope not. I am so SICK of being made to regret giving a man my heart. I'm just over it. I'm over the lies,over the betrayal..over the heartache...if you're just gonna use and abuse me later..GO AWAY!! he seems like the real deal but after what I learned about Rob...how can I trust this guy either? how do I know who I can trust anymore? my trust issues only got WORSE!!! =( then again,my fears/anxieties/trust issues etc could kill my chance of having a good man. I fear that too. Please God don't let me ruin a good thing? if it really is a good thing. I just don't know anymore. =,(
Thursday, September 3, 2015
so much going on...
I'm so BUMMED that Jake left our store. I was having fun giving him a hard time. seriously tho. I love him to death. The good thing is tho he works at the store just up the street from my house,so I get to drop in from time to time and annoy him good. =D I love that guy! he's my BUDDY!! ^_^ also..been hanging out w/another friend from work. This seems to have come from outta NOWHERE that he keeps wanting to talk to and hang w/me more. I've known him for MONTHS,but out of the blue, we are suddenly hanging out lately,and I gatta say I am enjoying it! I am NOT falling in love,but I am definitely having a great time and looking forward to the days we hang out. I am having more of a bounce in my step and am so much happier these days. I am no feeling as depressed or angry as I've been for a very long time. I am also attempting to get a transfer to the store up the road by my house and where Jake is. I would LOVE to be over here where I can annoy him and only be about 15 min from work. I had a crush on 1 guy and yet another is hanging out w/me lately. I am very mixed up w/all this...and kinda still missing my love,Rob. As long as I am being allowed to take things slow while I figure out where my heart/feelings,thoughts etc are headed before things go further, I will be fine. I just need to keep seeing where this goes and by that I mean where my feelings are headed-if anywhere.
Sunday, August 9, 2015
what's w/these dreams??
about a couple days ago, I had ANOTHER dream about something flying that is trying to get me. WHY do I have these dreams? it's always air craft of some sort that flies FAST towards my house like it's gonna smash through my window. I dunno. Maybe they're trying to kill me or something. This time it was the "big boy" statue or whatever it's called from "the simpsons." lol! it wasn't cartoon-like tho. It was "real." Like our world "real." Like what always happens in these dreams, I duck out of sight away from the window,but this time I was able to observe where it was and w/o it suddenly disappearing from sight. It was flying in circles like a hovering bird would over prey. wtf? like it waiting for me or something. It did that for a while and not "seeing" me,it finally left. weeeeeird.
I also had an AWESOME dream. 1 that I could control coz I KNEW I was dreaming. Sometimes, I still can't control my dreams,but I had the ability to control this 1. =) I had a dream about being at work and suddenly realizing I was dreaming and smiled over this and said to myself,"I know this is just a dream. I got an idea." In real life I have a HUGE crush on a gay guy at work(oh the irony), lol. Well in my dream, I marched right up to him and said, "I KNOW this is just a dream." then got straight to it. "I've had a major crush on u for several months." LOL talk about BOLD! hahaha. Anyway, to my surprise, he looked PLEASED about it. He smiled so big and then took my hand,and we walked right out the door. I was like, "oh, we're just up and leaving. ok. I guess we're not even gonna clock out 1st." It was just a dream,so I wasn't at ALL worried about it, LOL. I also hadn't forgotten that he's gay,but in my dream he was clearly straight..or at least bi. LOL!! coz he took my hand and walked me out. We were just gonna run off together I guess. We didn't get very far in the parking lot before I stopped him and pulled him to a tight death grip of a hug and stood there for a while just relishing in being in his arms. Then I pulled him down toward me and made out w/him..surprsingly he kissed me back! not stand there and let me do what I want, but he actually PARTICIPATED!! OH HELL YEAH!!! too bad it's ONLY a dream. dammit. lol yay!!! ^_^
I also had an AWESOME dream. 1 that I could control coz I KNEW I was dreaming. Sometimes, I still can't control my dreams,but I had the ability to control this 1. =) I had a dream about being at work and suddenly realizing I was dreaming and smiled over this and said to myself,"I know this is just a dream. I got an idea." In real life I have a HUGE crush on a gay guy at work(oh the irony), lol. Well in my dream, I marched right up to him and said, "I KNOW this is just a dream." then got straight to it. "I've had a major crush on u for several months." LOL talk about BOLD! hahaha. Anyway, to my surprise, he looked PLEASED about it. He smiled so big and then took my hand,and we walked right out the door. I was like, "oh, we're just up and leaving. ok. I guess we're not even gonna clock out 1st." It was just a dream,so I wasn't at ALL worried about it, LOL. I also hadn't forgotten that he's gay,but in my dream he was clearly straight..or at least bi. LOL!! coz he took my hand and walked me out. We were just gonna run off together I guess. We didn't get very far in the parking lot before I stopped him and pulled him to a tight death grip of a hug and stood there for a while just relishing in being in his arms. Then I pulled him down toward me and made out w/him..surprsingly he kissed me back! not stand there and let me do what I want, but he actually PARTICIPATED!! OH HELL YEAH!!! too bad it's ONLY a dream. dammit. lol yay!!! ^_^
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